(I found this floating around some paperwork the other day. I’m thankful for the few times I salvaged randomed sheets of scribbles and even more for the times I remembered to date the scribbles.)

Were you ever in a place-

a situation

a sad, a hopeless

event in time?

Were you ever face to face

with the inevitable-

the predictable?

Have you ever walked toward

a room

a person

a situation

knowing what was there was all too real?

Have you ever known:

been told

the information

the prognosis

the betrayal?

Have you ever walked out into the rain

without cover,

Called-

knowing who might answer

Visited-

knowing it could be the last time….?

Have you ever done all of this without

feeling

anything…

 

In the face of these things you are numb.

In the place of so many possible emotions, you have none.

Have you ever been numb?

In my thoughts I’m uncomfortably aware of a sensation as valid as emotion

as tangible as air-

………………..emptiness.

Is that what I feel? Is that the emotion?

Lack

of feeling

leaves a

void

that

CAN

be felt.

Have you ever

felt

emptiness?